“rediscovering the power of story”
I need to begin by letting you in on how I’m going to proceed with this. Each book that I read drops thoughts in my lap that make me consider who I am, where I am and how I am. Sometimes it’s easy to gloss over those questions, but it’s those questions that I’m going to seek out and try to get you to consider and ponder as well. I confess; I’m happy to ignore the answers to these and simply keep on doing what’s in front of me. But I believe there’s more to these questions and more to this story that we’re engaged in when we allow ourselves to recognize the roll we are playing. My hope is that together, we’ll engage our story, however similar or different it may be and become better at what we do.
I met Tim Keel several years ago in Atlanta at a weekend gathering where we sat in conversation with Walter Brueggemann. Tim’s approach to leadership and openness to admit that he didn’t have it all figured out appealed to me and put him on my radar of people that I could learn from. This book has been out for three years, and in terms of what some of this book talks about, may make some of the modernity and postmodernity discussion sound like history. Whether it’s old news or brand new, I’m confident that it remains contextually relevant to the story in which we’re engaged. And I trust, having not read the book prior to inviting you to journey with me, that Tim’s insight will provide us with opportunities to examine who we are as leaders and people.
Like Tim, I grew up in a story-telling family. I remember the best parts of family gatherings being the time around the table talking. My grandparents had two full living rooms full of furniture, but more often than not, the stories were told face-to-face around the dining room table. And what stands out to me about that is that they were stories that were lived and re-lived from a first-person point of view. I remember thinking as a kid that some day, I might have a story to tell at that table. Early on I was drawn to recognize that we are engaged in big and little stories where we might play an insignificant role or might be center stage with all eyes on us. But whether we acknowledge it or not, we were, and are, engaged in a story.
I also grew up in the church and by my own direction now find myself a mutt of theology and doctrine. Having taught and lead for much of my adult life, it wasn’t many years ago that I recognized that I too, like Tim suggests on page 36 have gone “to the Scriptures in search of certainty… systematically, seeking to extract principles from them.” It’s not that I wasn’t looking for the story, but the story was secondary to the information that was buried and trying to be understood. I know there were lessons to be learned around the dining room table at my grandparent’s house, but it was the story that engaged me (and still instilled the lesson). How had I missed the story that the Scriptures were telling? Why hadn’t I engaged that part of my faith?
Along with that recognition came my realization that my faith was based out of what I knew and not who I knew. I knew my God, at one point in history, became so distraught with His creation that He decided to nearly start again. So He picked a Godly man, put him though public ridicule while he built this huge boat in a desert. Then He flooded the earth and started over with just what was on the boat. There’s a few lessons to be taught from that story. What I had missed was the rest of that story. When the water’s subsided, that Godly man got off the boat stripped down and got publicly naked and drunk. That part kinda hits home – makes it a little more real and engaging – let’s me in on the imperfect status of a man that God might choose to use. But that part of the story gets left out and doesn’t fit nicely on a flannel graph in Sunday School or in the sermon notes on Sunday. But it’s part of the story and deserves to be told.
It was my own struggle with modernity and postmodernity that led me to be in Atlanta and have the opportunity to meet Tim. When he talks about modernity’s story on page 41 as being “the one we are struggling to live in today. We are independent, autonomous knowers, objectively encountering and engaging the world rationally as we progress toward a good future and away from a past clouded by ignorance and superstition” – this is where I struggle to exist. I’m comfortable thinking that I’m in my own personal bubble with my own little God journey going on. But I know that’s such an insignificant portion of the story in which God has me. It overlaps with so many other subplots. And unfortunately, I know that my role may have points that don’t work out the way that I would hope or expect.
That lesson has taken on a life of its own before my eyes. I’ve had the benefit of having Godly people live out their pain openly and honestly before me. When Quincy and Jennifer’s baby Ransom was delivered without the typically expected sound of a baby’s cry, they didn’t hide their story from us. They allowed me to deliver their story at the only funeral that I’ve officiated. Thankfully I didn’t have to try to put their story in my words – they gave me their words. Their embrace of a God who had taken them through a time that didn’t make sense – but was still His plan and done for His glory. They lived that out over and over and became a story that I’ll never forget. Not because of something that was said or a child that I missed, but because of a faith that withstood a story that from my point of view sucked.
Tim has two more lines in this first chapter that I can’t blow past. Both on page 43. The first speaks to why I believe my faith to be in the shallow state that it is – “Thus, our faith became domesticated, made in our own image, deprived of its wildness.” And secondly, with the realization that I don’t have it together, but living in a church culture that likes to tell their story as if they do have it all together: “It is a story about living in tension, not trying to resolve it.” The past five years, I’ve been learning to live in the tension between man and God, church and world, here and there, us and them, me and you. I don’t expect to always land on common ground or to find that happy medium – nor do I always want to. But I do hope to be faithful to the role God has for me in the tension.
I invite you to share what stood out to you in this first chapter. Each week, I’ll cover another chapter and give my own commentary. Feel free to comment on my thoughts and/or state your own.
much love,
– mark
May 24, 2010 at 10:39 am
Mark,
Thank you so much for sharing this and for what you said about us. I haven’t gotten the book yet (SHAME!) but would definitely like to discuss. 🙂 This idea of living in the tension just seems to keep coming up over and over… and voila! We got the Catalyst mailer a couple days ago. Guess what? TENSION is the theme. I really feel like God is working this out in my life right now, stretching me in new and different ways and maturing me to a place where I can be okay with others being drawn to a different, yet equally valid, understanding of God. THAT is tension. 🙂 Ultimately, I think the tension is good. If we aren’t stretched or uncomfortable, we don’t have any reason to grow.
Jennifer
May 24, 2010 at 10:45 am
And on a sort-of unrelated note, Erwin McManus is my favorite storyteller.
May 25, 2010 at 7:26 pm
I also think the “living in the tension” section at the end of the chapter is what stuck out the most to me. That is definitely something that I can relate to as i’m trying to be more like the person that I know God has called me to be (sanctification) and less like the person that I have in vision for myself. For me, that is what living in the tension is. It’s a tension that I will never escape, but a tension that I shouldn’t run away from.
On a related note, here is a quote from a book I’ve been recently (You Can Change by Tim Chester) reading that I think is good and that puts a good perspective on this concept of “story”…
“Our problem is that we think of ourselves as being at the center of our world. We think of our lives as a story and, if we’re Christians, God is one of the characters in our story. We look for him when we need him and expect him to be grateful when we serve him. He’s a lovely piece of our story, but we still think of it as our story. But it’s not our story. It’s God’s story… We exist to give him glory”
May 27, 2010 at 9:36 am
I can definitely relate to being a mutt spiritually/theology wise. I went to a very fundamental independent baptist school from age 6 to 18. My dad came from a very strong Southern Baptist background. My mom’s dad and granddad were both Church of God pastors. My dad became an ordained Church of God pastor when I was in high school. I started leading worship in the Church of God and am now an ordained Baptist. Crazy!
I can’t lie . . . my background makes me very wary of “story”. Both spiritual gifts tests and strengthsfinder tests put me in the learner/reader/knowledge categories. I naturally value information over story, and I don’t want to just blame modernity for that, because I know God leans me in that direction. I want to “know” stuff – I can’t help it!
However, I totally agree with Tim that “in our pursuit of the systematic, rational, objective, and universal, we lost the particular, intuitive, imaginative, poetic, and creative”. I agree with everybody else – I really like the idea of living in this tension. Even though I am naturally wired one way, I know others are not, and I want to learn from them and allow them to strengthen me in areas I am weak. My Bible study this morning was talking about being members of the body and how each one of us belong to each other. I love that picture of the church!